today i know it was nerves. not sick with bacteria or virus or cold
sick with nervous breakdown.
medicare doesn't pay enough to a qualified psychologist so the only thing the county has is civilians who have nervous breakdowns and got a minimum wage to sit and talk w someone. only reason to go back is if they start serving alcohol and it is ok to hit on the women "therapists" nothing else good therapeutically or medically or medically can come from going there. so where is the money? sleep tests and CPAP machines, nebulizers, pulmonary testings and etc etc etc. diabetes etc etc. thousands for something that is a symptom of a nervous breakdown. today's term is caregiver burnout. no coverage for that. no cultural coping to deal with it.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
finished the letter. this is me talking in the best cleaned up language i can do. it has to be good enough. want u to see it.
finished the letter. this is me talking in the best cleaned up language i can do. it has to be good enough. want u to see it.
so far using lawyers THINKING I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO nothing good happened to end the misery and suffering.
i am dying. the stress has crapped out my vascular system. i am bruising like i never did before. headaches i never had before (in both my head and my "head" and i am getting cataraacts and probably macular degeneration isn't far away and i am getting neuropathy. i believe that the stress caused the sleep apnea or made it worse and then when it went into 2 hres of sleep a night for 30 days straight that was bad. so bad that when i got 5 hours i was grateful to god for the respite. well the price i believe is that certain brain function is dying in the brain that keeps the nerves healthy. i am getting neuropathy in my feet half way up to my knees. so what is shutting down in other parts of the body? WHAT ORGANS?
I WANT TO LIVE but whatever is clicking inside me doesn't want to let go and run away from the beating the court is giving me. juri is insane, stupid and stuborn.
i am going to follow it up with another letter to the judge for his eyes only and a seperate letter to modris and it will have a offer but he might be too damage to let go like i am not going to let go. he goes public he is in a world of financial problems. in the letter i will extend the olive branch but he has to demonstrate repentence. if not he knows i will send out letters to various government agbencies and and tell them about his dad. the lawyers will eat up all that family has. it will be brutal. i have been walking around with his secrets for almost 20 years and he knows it. why he lied an made up bad shit about it is unbelievable seeing he knows what i know about his pop. but i have done stupid things in the past so who knows who does stupid shit. My intention is to win honorably and honestly. to salvage my relationship with moroz is secondary.
blah blah blah. i just need someone to talk to to talk with.
so far using lawyers THINKING I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO nothing good happened to end the misery and suffering.
i am dying. the stress has crapped out my vascular system. i am bruising like i never did before. headaches i never had before (in both my head and my "head" and i am getting cataraacts and probably macular degeneration isn't far away and i am getting neuropathy. i believe that the stress caused the sleep apnea or made it worse and then when it went into 2 hres of sleep a night for 30 days straight that was bad. so bad that when i got 5 hours i was grateful to god for the respite. well the price i believe is that certain brain function is dying in the brain that keeps the nerves healthy. i am getting neuropathy in my feet half way up to my knees. so what is shutting down in other parts of the body? WHAT ORGANS?
I WANT TO LIVE but whatever is clicking inside me doesn't want to let go and run away from the beating the court is giving me. juri is insane, stupid and stuborn.
i am going to follow it up with another letter to the judge for his eyes only and a seperate letter to modris and it will have a offer but he might be too damage to let go like i am not going to let go. he goes public he is in a world of financial problems. in the letter i will extend the olive branch but he has to demonstrate repentence. if not he knows i will send out letters to various government agbencies and and tell them about his dad. the lawyers will eat up all that family has. it will be brutal. i have been walking around with his secrets for almost 20 years and he knows it. why he lied an made up bad shit about it is unbelievable seeing he knows what i know about his pop. but i have done stupid things in the past so who knows who does stupid shit. My intention is to win honorably and honestly. to salvage my relationship with moroz is secondary.
blah blah blah. i just need someone to talk to to talk with.
The dead can dance. the carnival is over. 1993
going thru his collection of CDz today. ripping it the year of the CD is 1993.
that is the year he got diagnosed w melanoma. took out 5 pounds of flesh from his thigh. we talked about it but all he said is if it doesn't come backin 10 years your ok. that is when he started driving to montreal to have fun with the excort services. i didn't put it togehter at that time but now i do. he decided to do what he enjoys as often as he can and it ended up being a weekend goal every month. sometimes it was one weekend every two months. but that was the frequency for a decade and a few years. went up in feb of 2006. went into hospital march 23 or 21 and stayed until he went to the morgue.
that is the year he got diagnosed w melanoma. took out 5 pounds of flesh from his thigh. we talked about it but all he said is if it doesn't come backin 10 years your ok. that is when he started driving to montreal to have fun with the excort services. i didn't put it togehter at that time but now i do. he decided to do what he enjoys as often as he can and it ended up being a weekend goal every month. sometimes it was one weekend every two months. but that was the frequency for a decade and a few years. went up in feb of 2006. went into hospital march 23 or 21 and stayed until he went to the morgue.
Monday, December 26, 2011
I Wrote Mom's Caregivers a Letter.....
rich
i wrote mom's caregivers a letter saying to tell mom i love her and i forgive her and that jesus loves her and her mother and sister are waiting with open arms.
lets see what happens.
bill
-----Original Message-----
From: Bill Rundans
To: inuks14
Sent: Mon, Dec 26, 2011 9:57 pm
Subject: naakossu naakti ka liksi valentinu gulet pasaaki vinjai dazzus vardus no maniem
labriet inaara
ka liksi valentinu gulet iedot bucu ka normali un tad
passaki valentinai ka es peidodu vinju prieks melossaanas par maniem cilvekiem.
ne tikai valst cilvekiem un tiesnesiem un advocatiem bet piedodu prieks visam rezem ka stastija pasakas kuras nebija tasnigas un bija sliktas pasakas par maniem
pastaasti ka jesus kristus milj vinju un dod vinjai visu milestibu un mate un maasa gaida ar valejam rookaam.
viemer melessu.
juris.
i wrote mom's caregivers a letter saying to tell mom i love her and i forgive her and that jesus loves her and her mother and sister are waiting with open arms.
lets see what happens.
bill
-----Original Message-----
From: Bill Rundans
To: inuks14
Sent: Mon, Dec 26, 2011 9:57 pm
Subject: naakossu naakti ka liksi valentinu gulet pasaaki vinjai dazzus vardus no maniem
labriet inaara
ka liksi valentinu gulet iedot bucu ka normali un tad
passaki valentinai ka es peidodu vinju prieks melossaanas par maniem cilvekiem.
ne tikai valst cilvekiem un tiesnesiem un advocatiem bet piedodu prieks visam rezem ka stastija pasakas kuras nebija tasnigas un bija sliktas pasakas par maniem
pastaasti ka jesus kristus milj vinju un dod vinjai visu milestibu un mate un maasa gaida ar valejam rookaam.
viemer melessu.
juris.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
The Letter to Judge Teresi !
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Judge Teresi
Albany County Courthouse
Albany, NY 12207
Rapport, Mewyers Whitbeck, Shaw & Rodenhausen
Sheila Hilley
436 Union Street
Hudson, ny 12434
Tooms & Meier
Kathleen Toombs
157 Barrett Street
Schenectady, ny 12305
Murray S. Carr Esq
Examiner of Guardian Accounts
1683 Western Avenue
Albany, NY 12203
Dear Judge Teresi and Parti People,
I am recovering from surgery and the 11th will not be good for me to attend.
I too am interested in, seeing the overview of the status of the estate.
I am curious that Kathleen Toombs is there. What is she doing to keep the estate whole and protected? Is she working for Mom or Modris? Who is paying her?
Here is what I have been working on since our phone call. I learned what Ex-Parti means and I started to research how to communicate to you bad horrendous problems I have taking care of Mom. I remember a distant relative’s story from the 20s. It has been told a few times and I recently heard it as a metaphor for something. I said those days are over for me. That rough and tumble way of stopping abusive behavior is out or for fresh immigrants and gang members. I want to do better but I am trying to work with court but I just haven’t learned what else to do but keep taking the beating until I learn. They aren’t helpful at all but I will find an effective way to communicate what is going on so there isn’t any doubt or misunderstandings. The Legalese Path to Enlightenment.
Re: In the Matter of Valentine Rundans, IP
Index No: 4963-02
Dear Sirs and Madams:
Relative to the Guardianship of my mother, I would like to express the following concerns:
1. Immediate attention needs to be given to my mother's house. No one has bothered to turn off the outside water to the house, and the pipes will freeze. It is winter. I can do this, without having to expend vast sums of money to do simple tasks. Please give me access to the house so that this can be done.
2. My mother is dying and will not live more than a couple of months at the most. I wish to express my objections to the excessive money that has been siphoned off my mother's estate by lawyers and guardians who do not do their work in an efficient and timely manner. This matter needs to be brought to an end.
3. Finally, I request, as the beneficiary of my mother's estate, that I be copied on all communications, accountings, reports and other documents that are submitted to the court or between lawyers. I am representing myself in this matter, in that I do not wish to keep pouring good money into lawyers pockets and getting no satisfaction in return.
Thank you for consideration of my requests.
I went to your office to tell you what horrendous problems I have taking care of mom. I needed to talk you. You had some underling kick me out of your office because you can’t talk to me ex-parti. I called on the phone looking for help and you tell me you can’t talk to me ex-parti and hang up on me. I have been working diligently to present a communication of an urgent need about mom’s care. The topic I wanted to talk about was the crap I have to take from the assigned court personnel that feed off mom’s estate. They all have been a problem from the start. You want details we can talk and it would be fantastic if you can invite the abusers in so they can prepare a defense of as they have been doing a pre emptive attack on my character and thus interfere with my end in taking care of mom.
I thought I understood ex-parti, the way you explaind it, on the phone, but now I read that you had a wonderful conversation with Ms. Hilley and I was ex-parti to that conversation. Do I now understand “ex-parti” correctly? I feel abused. Should I feel that way? To me it seems like you are going to do whatever you wish and I am just a smudge in the pogrom judge Benza started. His pogrom is to kidnap Valentine Rundans because she fell down and has money. Whatever you say has been rehearsed and sanctioned by the government law and it is so to set me up (and anyone else that finds themselves caring for a parent with a sizeable estate) for failure. The Injustice against mom and all my relatives is continuing. Hilley can talk to you ex-parti but I can’t. she isn’t doing squat to keep mom alive and well, but she is getting a check from Mom’s purse for moving paper around for no reason other than churning the estate out of money and that is standard in my experience with the court. So now I am wondering what kind of beating you have in store for me. You have the cloth of power, what will you decide to do. Will you be human or will you be Borkian and do me with legal pepper spray?
All this letting go of bottled up angst is just jealousy that I didn’t take this Borkian Law Path in life to earn a living sucking off the blood of old people that fell down. I was a dumb draft dodging thief whose sentence was up in ’77 but u decided to still beat me up with my draft dodging behaviors. Congratulations for showing me what a man is supposed to be and do when he grows up. I am going to post this online so a kid in high school don’t have to be ex-parti to what is going on when their parent falls down and he seeks help from the guys with the “white hats”, the kid, from the future, now has a clear idea of what a law is and what lawyer and a judge are.
Ms Hilley can go and talk to you and you can write a letter to let me know she talked with you BUT you can’t do that for me. You disgust me. “Thy loathed tissue that issued from thine fathers loins.” Everyone associated with the court that got a payday off of mom is a visceral crook! Guess what I want to know? Who got what for what. Oh and skip that cause Mom told me she don’t want to pay for that information.
Ah that is how ex-parti works. The kid that takes care of his mom for free with out support of any kind (“don’t talk to me kid.”) and works like a chinaman in a factory all day long for stunaats and all the cronies of the court get to feed off the old lady’s purse. That’s how ex-parti works? Mom paid for everyone’s Christmas presents? Thanks for teaching me how non-ex-felons make a living. And I say it all with love, “God bless you Mr. Fagan.” I just can’t figure out why I am getting communication from you about a meeting since all is already decided and done and money collected for everyone? Or is this the last gasp to grab some money from the dying sick old lady? None of you are any better than a purse snatcher. Hey that was funny. No one has ever asked for my opinion about what is going on here and now I am volunteering my opinions. I am laughing now cause I know there is a beating coming down when you tell the old man what his shortcomings are and Pop wants to keep on suppressing it instead of dealing with it to make things better.
Very Truly Yours,
J. William Rundans
Addendum
Just about everything the Court did to Valentina Rundans and her Family was and is ABUSIVE, and Unjustice Perfomed. I would say that the abuse is in the same league as the Penn State Scandal same league as Physical Abuse, same league as Emotional Abuse. The worse that will happen is the kid that felt abused is gonna have to live with it. Loosen up. Let it go. Nothing you can do about it. You’re powerless.
I believed Phyllis when she told me that you are a good man. The little hope that I had is lost and man it feels just as bad at 64 as it did at 4 when I took the beating with a metal clock on a chain. With you I feel just as safe and just as nurtured and just as what? Thank you for letting me get it off my chest ‘cause I just noticed I got my wood back.
Judge Teresi
Albany County Courthouse
Albany, NY 12207
Rapport, Mewyers Whitbeck, Shaw & Rodenhausen
Sheila Hilley
436 Union Street
Hudson, ny 12434
Tooms & Meier
Kathleen Toombs
157 Barrett Street
Schenectady, ny 12305
Murray S. Carr Esq
Examiner of Guardian Accounts
1683 Western Avenue
Albany, NY 12203
Dear Judge Teresi and Parti People,
I am recovering from surgery and the 11th will not be good for me to attend.
I too am interested in, seeing the overview of the status of the estate.
I am curious that Kathleen Toombs is there. What is she doing to keep the estate whole and protected? Is she working for Mom or Modris? Who is paying her?
Here is what I have been working on since our phone call. I learned what Ex-Parti means and I started to research how to communicate to you bad horrendous problems I have taking care of Mom. I remember a distant relative’s story from the 20s. It has been told a few times and I recently heard it as a metaphor for something. I said those days are over for me. That rough and tumble way of stopping abusive behavior is out or for fresh immigrants and gang members. I want to do better but I am trying to work with court but I just haven’t learned what else to do but keep taking the beating until I learn. They aren’t helpful at all but I will find an effective way to communicate what is going on so there isn’t any doubt or misunderstandings. The Legalese Path to Enlightenment.
Re: In the Matter of Valentine Rundans, IP
Index No: 4963-02
Dear Sirs and Madams:
Relative to the Guardianship of my mother, I would like to express the following concerns:
1. Immediate attention needs to be given to my mother's house. No one has bothered to turn off the outside water to the house, and the pipes will freeze. It is winter. I can do this, without having to expend vast sums of money to do simple tasks. Please give me access to the house so that this can be done.
2. My mother is dying and will not live more than a couple of months at the most. I wish to express my objections to the excessive money that has been siphoned off my mother's estate by lawyers and guardians who do not do their work in an efficient and timely manner. This matter needs to be brought to an end.
3. Finally, I request, as the beneficiary of my mother's estate, that I be copied on all communications, accountings, reports and other documents that are submitted to the court or between lawyers. I am representing myself in this matter, in that I do not wish to keep pouring good money into lawyers pockets and getting no satisfaction in return.
Thank you for consideration of my requests.
I went to your office to tell you what horrendous problems I have taking care of mom. I needed to talk you. You had some underling kick me out of your office because you can’t talk to me ex-parti. I called on the phone looking for help and you tell me you can’t talk to me ex-parti and hang up on me. I have been working diligently to present a communication of an urgent need about mom’s care. The topic I wanted to talk about was the crap I have to take from the assigned court personnel that feed off mom’s estate. They all have been a problem from the start. You want details we can talk and it would be fantastic if you can invite the abusers in so they can prepare a defense of as they have been doing a pre emptive attack on my character and thus interfere with my end in taking care of mom.
I thought I understood ex-parti, the way you explaind it, on the phone, but now I read that you had a wonderful conversation with Ms. Hilley and I was ex-parti to that conversation. Do I now understand “ex-parti” correctly? I feel abused. Should I feel that way? To me it seems like you are going to do whatever you wish and I am just a smudge in the pogrom judge Benza started. His pogrom is to kidnap Valentine Rundans because she fell down and has money. Whatever you say has been rehearsed and sanctioned by the government law and it is so to set me up (and anyone else that finds themselves caring for a parent with a sizeable estate) for failure. The Injustice against mom and all my relatives is continuing. Hilley can talk to you ex-parti but I can’t. she isn’t doing squat to keep mom alive and well, but she is getting a check from Mom’s purse for moving paper around for no reason other than churning the estate out of money and that is standard in my experience with the court. So now I am wondering what kind of beating you have in store for me. You have the cloth of power, what will you decide to do. Will you be human or will you be Borkian and do me with legal pepper spray?
All this letting go of bottled up angst is just jealousy that I didn’t take this Borkian Law Path in life to earn a living sucking off the blood of old people that fell down. I was a dumb draft dodging thief whose sentence was up in ’77 but u decided to still beat me up with my draft dodging behaviors. Congratulations for showing me what a man is supposed to be and do when he grows up. I am going to post this online so a kid in high school don’t have to be ex-parti to what is going on when their parent falls down and he seeks help from the guys with the “white hats”, the kid, from the future, now has a clear idea of what a law is and what lawyer and a judge are.
Ms Hilley can go and talk to you and you can write a letter to let me know she talked with you BUT you can’t do that for me. You disgust me. “Thy loathed tissue that issued from thine fathers loins.” Everyone associated with the court that got a payday off of mom is a visceral crook! Guess what I want to know? Who got what for what. Oh and skip that cause Mom told me she don’t want to pay for that information.
Ah that is how ex-parti works. The kid that takes care of his mom for free with out support of any kind (“don’t talk to me kid.”) and works like a chinaman in a factory all day long for stunaats and all the cronies of the court get to feed off the old lady’s purse. That’s how ex-parti works? Mom paid for everyone’s Christmas presents? Thanks for teaching me how non-ex-felons make a living. And I say it all with love, “God bless you Mr. Fagan.” I just can’t figure out why I am getting communication from you about a meeting since all is already decided and done and money collected for everyone? Or is this the last gasp to grab some money from the dying sick old lady? None of you are any better than a purse snatcher. Hey that was funny. No one has ever asked for my opinion about what is going on here and now I am volunteering my opinions. I am laughing now cause I know there is a beating coming down when you tell the old man what his shortcomings are and Pop wants to keep on suppressing it instead of dealing with it to make things better.
Very Truly Yours,
J. William Rundans
Addendum
Just about everything the Court did to Valentina Rundans and her Family was and is ABUSIVE, and Unjustice Perfomed. I would say that the abuse is in the same league as the Penn State Scandal same league as Physical Abuse, same league as Emotional Abuse. The worse that will happen is the kid that felt abused is gonna have to live with it. Loosen up. Let it go. Nothing you can do about it. You’re powerless.
I believed Phyllis when she told me that you are a good man. The little hope that I had is lost and man it feels just as bad at 64 as it did at 4 when I took the beating with a metal clock on a chain. With you I feel just as safe and just as nurtured and just as what? Thank you for letting me get it off my chest ‘cause I just noticed I got my wood back.
This is What I am Dealing With.....
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Thursday, December 22, 2011
Friday, December 16, 2011
I am in a transition phase like never before. stuff is popping up into my head.
today
remember a time when i was maybe 10-12 i am hanging with mom and there is regular chore stuff going on. mom is talking about normal stuff. then the topic shifted to my existence. pop wanted a boy but mom was happy with the things the way they were and she didn't want to have _____ (forgot what that was). (kid?) i came along cause she wanted to make pop happy but she paid a price. implication was a loss of the good life without me around.
why would that message come into my head today? what kind of decision might a kid make from that. no drama just a run of the mill decision.
the one that started things off is the intense frustration of not knowing what to do while taking a beating.
been in an article 81 proceeding for 10 years. the government is taking the money but talking like they care but their results negate their lie. like all good moves i make are stopped because "i can't have money" i felt it and the instant i felt it i remembered being about 5or 6 or 4 adn i had my empty bottle money and pop took it from me and gave me a verbal beating about the heart that i don't know what to do with money and he is taking from me for my own good.
"i Can't Have Money"
since that BAM i haven't been able to experience the same intense feeling of "i can't have money" but i believe that belief is in my somehwere somehow. want to erase it. the reality i create with that belief is causeing me lots of problems.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Getting to Know you....
-----Original Message-----
From: Bill Rundans
To:
Sent: Wed, Nov 30, 2011 12:42 am
Subject: called teresi's office yesterday morning. i was out of my mind with worry anxiety and panic. better now.
his secretary phyllis is the mom i always wanted for myself.
gentle and loving.
christ, to have a woman in my life who is a lover and that gentle and loving in a funky sexy way would be a blessing too but then i am on sick puppy. did i ever tell you that i coulda been a genius except that sex got in the way of that? in my mind i am discerning but when i have a choice between saying yes to someone who wants to get laid tonight and a date where i could start a relationship...i have always chosen the path to get laid right now.
she calmed me down.
judge is out of office working his job in other counties. who know? !
couple of nights ago i was up all night. litterally. first time it was with energy. different kind of twisted mental state. something new. the last three years it is like. body is in the toilet, exhausted, but the mind isn't shutting down. like a zombie. i don't think heroin can mess me up as bad as my mind was trying to kill my body.
where was my mind, a few nights ago??
"another corrupt judge that is ignoring the crisis situation and the legal lawyer guardian he appointed is going to drag out the estate process to suck out the last 70 large. maybe i am lucky to get the house. if i get the house then = $400/mo for the last 11 years. insane."
my thinking was wrong. he isn't ignoring me he is working his job some other town and hasn't read my second letter.
man he got lucky with the phyllis woman. (by default - me too!) a kind word when your taking a beating is like a couple of ounces of water to a man dying of thirst. you kinda fall intothe phyllis category of relief because someone understands and cares enough to listen. so far everyone in the judge's office, that i have met, is a dickhead.
clarity. only met his law clerk. punk w a SWAT team behind him. but then if i had a SWAT team to back up my bullshit i would probably be a bigger dick than him! :-)
Benza's office. he was the big dickhead. visceral crook. shook me down for a payday thru william toomey (my lawyer) i didn't see a reason to payoff since i wasn't trying to get out of jail for breaking the law. WRONG. no payoff? then a 6 mo procedure goes 5years! hm. now that i am re reading this for spelling errors i think. maybe benza didn't know? maybe toomey and the lawyer's on mom's team decided to end it properly but get some money for doing the right thing. so toomey gives me the message and i didn't see it as such back then,...so they got together to earn the "payoff" fee by dragging out the process and screwing the family up. fuck the kid. he's too stupid to pay us off? then fuck him. that was my attitude when i couldn't get out of viet nam duty. i went underground and when i robbed a bank with a pen i just said "fuck them if they can't give me a break"
giving u some feedback when i am feeling better. slept from tiredness. i cheated and took some benadryl tablets. i can get the 6 hours like regular now. somenights i score with 7 but haven't had a 8 hour rest since 09. then there are the insane nights where there is no sleep. the meds the md was giving me no longer worked. i only got one night of sleep in 5 days with a pill. worked only one night then i had to lay off for 5 before it would work again but the laying off days were hell.
i think mom is closer to dying. got a email from the relatives that they want instructions for how to process her once she dies. the details. so that means she is close to checking out. i saw her as dying way back in 08. that is when my sleep problems began.
i already sent them 600 for the cost of the reception and now i am sending money for the funeral part. too bad there isn't a me for me when my time comes. hopefully i walk and fall down dead. this keeping someone alive is crap.
From: Bill Rundans
To:
Sent: Wed, Nov 30, 2011 12:42 am
Subject: called teresi's office yesterday morning. i was out of my mind with worry anxiety and panic. better now.
his secretary phyllis is the mom i always wanted for myself.
gentle and loving.
christ, to have a woman in my life who is a lover and that gentle and loving in a funky sexy way would be a blessing too but then i am on sick puppy. did i ever tell you that i coulda been a genius except that sex got in the way of that? in my mind i am discerning but when i have a choice between saying yes to someone who wants to get laid tonight and a date where i could start a relationship...i have always chosen the path to get laid right now.
she calmed me down.
judge is out of office working his job in other counties. who know? !
couple of nights ago i was up all night. litterally. first time it was with energy. different kind of twisted mental state. something new. the last three years it is like. body is in the toilet, exhausted, but the mind isn't shutting down. like a zombie. i don't think heroin can mess me up as bad as my mind was trying to kill my body.
where was my mind, a few nights ago??
"another corrupt judge that is ignoring the crisis situation and the legal lawyer guardian he appointed is going to drag out the estate process to suck out the last 70 large. maybe i am lucky to get the house. if i get the house then = $400/mo for the last 11 years. insane."
my thinking was wrong. he isn't ignoring me he is working his job some other town and hasn't read my second letter.
man he got lucky with the phyllis woman. (by default - me too!) a kind word when your taking a beating is like a couple of ounces of water to a man dying of thirst. you kinda fall intothe phyllis category of relief because someone understands and cares enough to listen. so far everyone in the judge's office, that i have met, is a dickhead.
clarity. only met his law clerk. punk w a SWAT team behind him. but then if i had a SWAT team to back up my bullshit i would probably be a bigger dick than him! :-)
Benza's office. he was the big dickhead. visceral crook. shook me down for a payday thru william toomey (my lawyer) i didn't see a reason to payoff since i wasn't trying to get out of jail for breaking the law. WRONG. no payoff? then a 6 mo procedure goes 5years! hm. now that i am re reading this for spelling errors i think. maybe benza didn't know? maybe toomey and the lawyer's on mom's team decided to end it properly but get some money for doing the right thing. so toomey gives me the message and i didn't see it as such back then,...so they got together to earn the "payoff" fee by dragging out the process and screwing the family up. fuck the kid. he's too stupid to pay us off? then fuck him. that was my attitude when i couldn't get out of viet nam duty. i went underground and when i robbed a bank with a pen i just said "fuck them if they can't give me a break"
giving u some feedback when i am feeling better. slept from tiredness. i cheated and took some benadryl tablets. i can get the 6 hours like regular now. somenights i score with 7 but haven't had a 8 hour rest since 09. then there are the insane nights where there is no sleep. the meds the md was giving me no longer worked. i only got one night of sleep in 5 days with a pill. worked only one night then i had to lay off for 5 before it would work again but the laying off days were hell.
i think mom is closer to dying. got a email from the relatives that they want instructions for how to process her once she dies. the details. so that means she is close to checking out. i saw her as dying way back in 08. that is when my sleep problems began.
i already sent them 600 for the cost of the reception and now i am sending money for the funeral part. too bad there isn't a me for me when my time comes. hopefully i walk and fall down dead. this keeping someone alive is crap.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Email to Dave - 11/11/11
11/11/2011
so far using lawyers THINKING I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO nothing good happened to end the misery and suffering.
i am dying. the stress has crapped out my vascular system. i am bruising like i9 never did befor and i am getting cataraacts and probably macular degeneration isn't far away and i am getting neuropathy. i believe that the stresscaused the sleep apnea and the crapped out rhinoplasty i got done in95 i never go
so far using lawyers THINKING I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO nothing good happened to end the misery and suffering.
i am dying. the stress has crapped out my vascular system. i am bruising like i9 never did befor and i am getting cataraacts and probably macular degeneration isn't far away and i am getting neuropathy. i believe that the stresscaused the sleep apnea and the crapped out rhinoplasty i got done in95 i never go
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Letter to teresi
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Hon. Joseph C. Teresi, Supreme Court Justice
County Courthouse Room 429
16 Eagle Street
Albany, NY 12207
Regarding Incapacitated Person: Valentina Rundans (my mother)
Dear Judge Teressi
I called your office today and spoke with your secretary and my opening words were, “I need the Judge to help me help take care of mom.” Then I proceeded to tell what has been going on that has made it very difficult for me to function effectively and securely in the taking care of my mom. A demonstration of Mr. Moroz’s incompetence is his inability to submit proper paperwork to resign. He’s lacking. A demonstration in the skills and competency and character necessary to care out the duties of taking care of my mom, with love is the time he is taking to do simple bookwork and prior to this exercise…If he had a problem with me or the way I carry out my duties in harmony with what information Moroz was giving me, he needed to knock on your door. That would not have frightened me.
#1. Modris Moroz hasn’t spoken to me since March and from April to August I was paying for all of mom’s needs and before this incident there are numerous times I have paid to get thing done for her, that were necessary. I hired a lawyer to get the message to you. He was never able to deliver this message to you. I was successful in contacting your office today by doing it myself and then further instructions to write it out for you to read. There’s more but we can talk later.
#2. Mom’s house is abandoned and the tenants I found were not good enough for Mr Moroz yet he hasn’t done anything to rent the place.
#3. When I became aware that he had apparently abandoned the rental project I started to fix the mess he made and when he heard that I refinished the floors he changed the locks on the house. NOTE half the things in the house are mine. I need access to my things, don’t want to get arrested for trespassing.
#4. There are numerous false accusations and threats of arrest for stealing $50,000 and stealing mom’s “rings”. These things I heard in the month of March and there hasn’t been any communication after that encounter. This is causing a problem for me to fulfill my function to take care of mom. IT IS A HUGE PROBLEM.
I NEED HELP. I can be contacted at Cphone# 518-253-4764
Sincerely,
J.W. Rundans
Cc: Murray Carr
1683 Western Avenue
Albany, NY 12203
Toombs & Mier
156 Barrett Street
Schenectady, NY 12305
Arnis Zilgme
POB 13263
Albany, NY 12212
Modris Moroz
416 Elm Avenue
Selkirk, NY 12185
Hon. Joseph C. Teresi, Supreme Court Justice
County Courthouse Room 429
16 Eagle Street
Albany, NY 12207
Regarding Incapacitated Person: Valentina Rundans (my mother)
Dear Judge Teressi
I called your office today and spoke with your secretary and my opening words were, “I need the Judge to help me help take care of mom.” Then I proceeded to tell what has been going on that has made it very difficult for me to function effectively and securely in the taking care of my mom. A demonstration of Mr. Moroz’s incompetence is his inability to submit proper paperwork to resign. He’s lacking. A demonstration in the skills and competency and character necessary to care out the duties of taking care of my mom, with love is the time he is taking to do simple bookwork and prior to this exercise…If he had a problem with me or the way I carry out my duties in harmony with what information Moroz was giving me, he needed to knock on your door. That would not have frightened me.
#1. Modris Moroz hasn’t spoken to me since March and from April to August I was paying for all of mom’s needs and before this incident there are numerous times I have paid to get thing done for her, that were necessary. I hired a lawyer to get the message to you. He was never able to deliver this message to you. I was successful in contacting your office today by doing it myself and then further instructions to write it out for you to read. There’s more but we can talk later.
#2. Mom’s house is abandoned and the tenants I found were not good enough for Mr Moroz yet he hasn’t done anything to rent the place.
#3. When I became aware that he had apparently abandoned the rental project I started to fix the mess he made and when he heard that I refinished the floors he changed the locks on the house. NOTE half the things in the house are mine. I need access to my things, don’t want to get arrested for trespassing.
#4. There are numerous false accusations and threats of arrest for stealing $50,000 and stealing mom’s “rings”. These things I heard in the month of March and there hasn’t been any communication after that encounter. This is causing a problem for me to fulfill my function to take care of mom. IT IS A HUGE PROBLEM.
I NEED HELP. I can be contacted at Cphone# 518-253-4764
Sincerely,
J.W. Rundans
Cc: Murray Carr
1683 Western Avenue
Albany, NY 12203
Toombs & Mier
156 Barrett Street
Schenectady, NY 12305
Arnis Zilgme
POB 13263
Albany, NY 12212
Modris Moroz
416 Elm Avenue
Selkirk, NY 12185
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Does U.S. Economic Inequality Have a Good Side?
From: Bill Rundans
To: <********@hotmail.com>
Sent: Thu, Oct 27, 2011 5:31 am
Subject: Re: Does U.S. Economic Inequality Have a Good Side?
contrarian view
inequality in a free market system might not be so bad" "what's good about inequality...wonderful force of creation..." jobs' product story.
we aren't talking about the 1% that are jobs people
most of the inequality is similar to what just happened last week with the agriculture bill. willie nelson has been singing for the farmers since the 80s because of inequality in coroporate welfare.
Jobs made his Apple work without any corporate welfare and i am ok with THAT that is what the guy interviewed is talking about
however in the real world most of the problems arise at the gaspump
i got crap enthenol laced gasoline that is robbing me of 5 mpg and a reduction the power performance or my car.
how is that done?
subsidies to the agricultural industry.
blah blah blah. we had subsidies that supported famers with up to 500 acres starting in the 50s.
that has morphed to the money being given to industrial farmers who have one 2,000 acre facility that feeds (and ocassionally poisons) people in 26 surrounding states.
about 50 companies get billions of dollars in subsidies from the feds.
last week the elimiated those subsidies with fanfare.
then they re wrote the law so they don't have to play tricks and make believe the little farmer gets a helping hand to feed me n mine and created a new law that shunted the money to primarily the industrial farmers to grow corn for ethenal production that is sold on the international market for profits BIG as profits and meanwhile i am getting 13mpg in the city instead of 18mpg like i used to get.
To: <********@hotmail.com>
Sent: Thu, Oct 27, 2011 5:31 am
Subject: Re: Does U.S. Economic Inequality Have a Good Side?
contrarian view
inequality in a free market system might not be so bad" "what's good about inequality...wonderful force of creation..." jobs' product story.
we aren't talking about the 1% that are jobs people
most of the inequality is similar to what just happened last week with the agriculture bill. willie nelson has been singing for the farmers since the 80s because of inequality in coroporate welfare.
Jobs made his Apple work without any corporate welfare and i am ok with THAT that is what the guy interviewed is talking about
however in the real world most of the problems arise at the gaspump
i got crap enthenol laced gasoline that is robbing me of 5 mpg and a reduction the power performance or my car.
how is that done?
subsidies to the agricultural industry.
blah blah blah. we had subsidies that supported famers with up to 500 acres starting in the 50s.
that has morphed to the money being given to industrial farmers who have one 2,000 acre facility that feeds (and ocassionally poisons) people in 26 surrounding states.
about 50 companies get billions of dollars in subsidies from the feds.
last week the elimiated those subsidies with fanfare.
then they re wrote the law so they don't have to play tricks and make believe the little farmer gets a helping hand to feed me n mine and created a new law that shunted the money to primarily the industrial farmers to grow corn for ethenal production that is sold on the international market for profits BIG as profits and meanwhile i am getting 13mpg in the city instead of 18mpg like i used to get.
Monday, June 13, 2011
My dannemora inmate # 48514. I am serious about paying to get my prison mug shots.
From: Bill Rundans
To: inc <*****@servico.com>
Sent: Mon, Jun 13, 2011 9:36 pm
Subject: my dannemora inmate # 48514. i am serious about paying to get my prison mug shots.
scott
i am willing to pay to get them. can ur guys do the job?
if not who could u recommend to do it?
bill
also my prison name was
juris w. rundans
interesting reading theletter from my bro in 75. he was interested in "chicks" gave the run down on the female teacher's important statistics. chest-waist-hips :-)
he told me to quit smoking.
bill
To: inc <*****@servico.com>
Sent: Mon, Jun 13, 2011 9:36 pm
Subject: my dannemora inmate # 48514. i am serious about paying to get my prison mug shots.
scott
i am willing to pay to get them. can ur guys do the job?
if not who could u recommend to do it?
bill
also my prison name was
juris w. rundans
interesting reading theletter from my bro in 75. he was interested in "chicks" gave the run down on the female teacher's important statistics. chest-waist-hips :-)
he told me to quit smoking.
bill
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